Leaving, maybe so much better...

I often think that if one is finding hard to continue living, perhaps it is better to leave the current place forever...

You may have a lot of other thoughts and things that you cannot leave behind, but if you cannot be happy where you are, then how are you suppose to be happy for the rest of your life when you wanted to be happy?

I don't know anymore...

I really don't know anymore....

Perhaps... I am still waiting for that someone to bring me away from the place...

心已死……

已经无所谓了……
这是他们一直以来的态度，我也无所谓了……
是什么于原因已经不重要了……
不是我无理取闹……而是既然答应了，就要做到……
如此简单的道理，如果做不到，那就不要答应……

It's over!!!

Really relief that it is over...
The practicum has been bothering me for a while...
Hopefully I can pass well and see my friends at the graudation ceremony...
Well, all the best to everyone who have not done it!!!

So you think that is a good enough reason?? Come on! Give me a better one!

Please! If 11am is late? Then what are you doing for the whole afternoon?? Sleeping?? You are the only one free so, I nicely ask you to help! Don't give me this kind of rubbish reason!! Even the one you suppose to help have do!! Don't even know if you really put your heart to help at all!!!

Now you are singing damn loudly! And you dare to tell me you got no time!!!
Please! I saw you so slack at home all day!! Don't tell me checking a disc for 2 hr will die!!!

If I can, I will do it myself! Why would I try to ask you to help!

ReallY!!
STOP GIVING ALL THE RUBBISH EXCUSE!!!!

日本 頑張れ！

日本　頑張れ！

Tsunami Hits Japan 11-03-2011 津波は日本を打つ-海啸袭来日本 -Tsunami Menyerang Jepang

让我们来为日本祈祷，希望接下来能够平安……
这次的灾难已经夺走人们太多的东西了……
一连串的消息，我相信不止震惊了我们，也震惊了全世界……
而日本的居民，在这时候依旧发挥着舍己为人、互相帮助的精神，帮助彼此……
看到了这样的情况，我真的认为，我们要学习的真的太多了……
请大家为他们继续的祈祷吧……
放下成见，伸出援助之手，才是我们真正要学习的……

无题……

无论是什么样的情况已经打击不了我了……
是不是朋友，一个举动、一句言语，就能看得一清二楚……

我不会感到惋惜，也不会感到悲伤，因为，我早已看惯一切……
对我来说，这样的情况，是数也数不清的……
我只会珍惜，让我觉得值得珍惜的朋友……
就算不常见面、不常联络，但是只要有那小小的心意，就已经足够了……

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换个话题，在PRO-TEACH已经工作将近半年了，这也是我有史以来工作最久的一次，真的很喜欢小孩……对这些小孩有时真的是又好气，有好笑……
对我而言，这些孩子，让我气得面红耳赤时，同时也让我学会许多东西……
真的很爱小孩呢……
原本，对于教育的那份犹豫，已经慢慢转换成了另一种言语上无法形容的东西了……
真的……
很奇怪呢……

KAT-TUN 2010演唱会

说实话……
如果他们真的来新加坡开演唱会……
我一定会马上去买票（还会连我妹妹们的票一起买），然后去观看他们的演唱会……
不过，为什么不来新加坡呢???（暂且不谈这个）

最近，KAT-TUN的新闻真的是满天飞……
看了也叫人心寒……
不过，无论发生什么事……也希望KAT-TUN的Fans们能够继续相信、支持他们……
八卦杂志、绯闻……这些，我们都很清楚……不能完全相信……
无论别人怎么说小上、丸子、KOKI、甜甜、小龟（或者某A）……
我都会继续相信KAT-TUN……
因为他们也是希望我们这么相信他们的……

救命！！！

我的巨大危机！！！

居然在明天！！！

明天要我呈现！！！虽然说不用这么的formal，可是，还是很可怕的说！！！
连幻灯片也不用，只要汇报情况就行了……真的……很可怕呢！！！

这比我写不出小说还要恐怖呢……怎么办呢？？？

无题

今天真的很累……

因为心仪请假了，星期四才会回来，结果，今天我一直坐在柜台那里忙忙碌碌，而且，因为有时新手，很多事情，我都不懂，结果一直问，又派对方生气、嫌我麻烦……之后又问一些，只有他们才应该懂的问题……我并不知道啊！然后我提出解决方法时，又在那里说不用……真的，感觉很难伺候……

接下来的三天，我都要独自和那些资深人员一起……真的很担心……每当我渐渐的开始有自信时，就会发生一些小插曲，让我的自信瓦解……真的……不知道，我几时才会崩溃……

我担心、害怕，没有好友，或同年龄的人在身边时，那种压力……真的……很久没有了……

血压最近偏高了……是压力?还是饮食不均衡呢?

实习ing……

开始实习已经一个星期了……有些不习惯的同时，也很累的说……

已经习惯无忧无虑的生活时，突然要踏入社会，确实很辛苦。以前工作，都只是工作5天制，现在一下子要工作5天1/2，实在有些吃不消……

之前，明明很期待毕业的……现在却……想永远制作学生……

真的……很累……很烦……还要准备呈现什么的……自己一个人……真的没问题吗?

结婚典礼

9月21日，我去参加了萱萱老师的婚礼！！！真的是很气派、很甜蜜、很有文学色彩呢！！！

在同一桌的同学们聊着，便说到了将来的婚礼要怎么办了呢！同时也让我们一起了解各位的近况，真的是一次不错的体验呢！！！

希望在不远的将来，能去参加好友们的婚礼哦！！！

迟来的祝福……

祝丸子26岁生日快乐！！！

9月4日，是丸子的生日了呢……哈哈！！！希望，今年会有更多的消息哦……

期待ing……

Updates

Well, decided to update a bit after my exams and before my trip to China! Really, it is sad and stressful to being keep reminded that I am leaaving Singapore tomorrow! (Throw that thought away!)

Well, had my one and only, last paper on Monday. Glad to say at least I know how to answer the questions as compared to my class test. Glad I studied and I really did put in a lot of efforts. Maybe I am a person who studies better a night(A habit I pick up from my sceondary school mate)...

After that went home with some food and bought some items that to be brought to China. And guess what? The moment I reached home, I started doing housework after my lunch! Wanted to do as much as I can before I go to China because, I know that my sisters and parents will be too busy to do some of the regular things I have been doing every week.

After that, went to city hall to meet Stephie for a shopping spree! Actually, she did. I wanted to get some clothes and shoes, but changed my mind due to the fact that I will be spending a lot of money in China. But I still had fun! Went to this place for dinner to rest our feets and the place provides free-flow of ice-cream, soft drinks and coffee! and I only spend about $10 odd! It is really worth the money! Always enjoy my time with her and even with slience, we can still understand each other quite well! Haha! Therefore, I am warning you guys not to bully her! She is a girl, therefore, treat her well!

For the rest of these 2 days, I have been speding time with my family... Really, my family matters a lot. Even though I declined a lot of meet ups and stuff, but it does not mean that I don't care about you guys, it is just that, I will be back soon! So don't worry too much about me!

Really, take care and all the best! Will be back in July! Will update again once I settle over at China!

A message to you guys...

Hi people!

As you all know that I am leaving on 27th Feb 12am, which means that I am leaving on 26th night! It is a pity that I can't meet up with you all before I fly to China. But it is really nice to know you guys! By the time I am back, some of you will have already graduated from NP, some will be in Year 3.

Really going to miss you guys when I am in China and hope to keep in contact with you guys even though we won't be able to see each other or meet up often!

TO Melissa,

You are a great friend and always gives lots of ideas and solutions when we met with problems in daiko. Really a great leader who stand up for our rights and freedom when we needed it. Thanks! Even though we don't sped a lot of time together, I am still relieve to know you so much so that there is someone who understand my stand and reasons when I needed someone to support. Take care of yourself and wishing you and K.S. happiness!

TO Stephie,

You are my darling! Haha! Really happy to know you and fortunate to have you as a friend. We had so much in common and yet so much difference. It is a wonder we can hit off so well after a while! Perhaps this is really the "non-classmate situation" that brings us together. Whatever it is, great to have you by my side whenever I need someone. Do take care of yourself and don't hesitate to look for me if you need help. And don't do things that will hurt yourself. (You know what I mean.)

TO Pei Yi,

Well, the only common thing we have is... anime and manga. Haha! Was quite surprise that we hit off well after a while. You are nice and fun gal to be with and really sometimes I realise that you actually notice a lot of things more than other people. Haha! And you really give great advice! Glad to know you and Phui Shan and hope that you stay cheerful forever no matter what happens!

TO Phui Shan,

You are a girl who speaks your own mind and always do things at your own pace. I really admire your character who speaks freely and really express your thoughts when you are in doubt and angry and happy etc. You are really full of expressions and fun to be with! Hope to be able to meet up again when I come back! Take care!

TO Kenny,

Well, you are like a brother... But you always know how to cheer people and with all your small actions you really are a very funny person! Haha! But really, do take care of yourself and don't over exert yourself, because you tend to get sick very often. And I believed with more practice, you and Xin Jie can really be a very good team in daiko! Take care and feel free to talk to me if you need help or need a listening ear!

TO Xin Jie,

You are......a nice friend. At times, I find it really difficult to understand you and all, but I realise that you are very compromising person. But well, perhaps it is your character that prevents arguements from arising. Take care and eat more! Haha! Practice more with Kenny and you two can make a gooddaiko duo team! And do help Stephie in daiko (Mind you, she is in year 3 next year!)!

TO Jaslyn & Chao Lin,

Though we don't have a lot of interactions, but it is great to know you guys because you guys are always fun loving and with you guys around, we are always enjoying ourselves no matter what.Take good care of yourselves and hope to meet up with you guys event though the chances of it will be very slim.

TO Alvin,

Mm......Know you through......Daniel and...... Melissa(?). Well, Thought you are interesting and funny guy. You are a nice guys who really volunteer your help when someone is in need of of help. Really glad to know you as a friend... Well, do take care of yourself and thanks for all the help you have given! All the best in whatever you wish for!

TO K.S.,

Actually, I don't really know you that well. Haha! Know you through Melissa, and realise that you are really good big brother. Really helped a lot for the planning of the daiko chalet. Otherwise, Stephie and me will be in a mess. Thanks! But really, you need to think twice before helping or else, you will be suffering a lot. Take care of Melissa and just be yourself I guess...

TO all my JC, Secondary and Primary Friends,

I will be back, so there is no need to meet up now. So don't worry, we can still keep in contact and all! Will miss you guys! Will keep you update when I go over!

さようなら！

また来週！

给：小川麻琴、紺野あさみ

这是送给小川麻琴、紺野あさみ的毕业礼物。

小川さん、紺野さん，卒業　おめてとう　ございます。

无题

在家里准备考试的当儿，实在是又闷、又无奈，最后只好在电脑前坐了一些图片拼凑的游戏……感觉就是很“no life”的感觉……

去中国的日子即将到来，可是我一点都没有想离开的感觉……这是不是代表，我根本就没有想离开这里的感觉呢？我的一颗心就只是想留在新加坡，陪着家人、朋友，我是不是太贪心了呢？

送给即将从Hello Project毕业的小川麻琴以及绀野朝美，希望她们能永远的快乐、幸福……

Leaving!

Okay, people, I am finally telling you guys when I will be leaving. But frankly, don't bother coming over to send me. Because, my flight is like 12.00am midnight!!!

My flight is on 27th Feb 12.00am++... Which means, I need to be at the airport on 26th Feb night at about 10.00pm++!!! It is just not fair!!! The other group of students is leaving only in the morning at 8.00am!!!

I really don't want to leave!!! Leaving here, means I have to clear all my unfinished stuff like collect money and gatherings before I leave! Problem is I have a super STM currently and always short of time!!! And I will miss all my friends and family!

Anyway, people, remember to take good care of yourself! I will let you all know once I settle over there!

Updates

Finally! After so long... I finally manage to get some time off to update my blog!

Let's go back to last week... Last time I mention I was going to visit my teacher's house for CNY BBQ. So, let's backtrack. Met my friends at Clementi MRT to go to our teacher's house, reached there at about 5.30pm and we helped to do some preparation though we were surprise that the other class arrived so much earlier than us! Anyway after helping out with the preparation, went to the wash room to clean up, only to be ask to do the BBQing because the most of them do not seem to jnow how to do it... So well, me and 3 other person went to do the BBQing for the rest of the night. At the end of the day, because of the fact that my friends were eating and taking photos when I was BBQing with other class people, I manage to take a photo with the teacher alone!!!

The BBQ-in-charge!

Me & my teacher

After that, the next few days, I am busy with the test and projets. I was so busy that, I feel that, I am going to explode!

Then came Sunday again, and I was once again in a super hyper mood! Had a class outing with my class since year 1's chalet! And it was a lot more fun then the chalet! I had fun and a great time. Went to MIND Cafe at 2 and played around till about 5 odd before we proceed to Liang Court for dinner. After which, we went to Clinic for a drink. But well, I do not really know how to drink, so I just tried a bit, and it was awful! Haha! Anyway, I will upload more photos in time to come... Once I get the photos and time to post them!

On Monday, had our photo exhibition at our space and it was a great one (I guess)! Had some achievements but not a lot because I am mainly doing all the backstage job which finally suits me for once! Haha! currently busy with my marketing presentation and hope it goes well tomorrow...

Anyway, here's the other photos of my formal presentation:

Our class's one and only FULL group photo!

My Formal Presentation Group Members

My other formal presentation group member

My other member for the marketing project

Last but not least, my best partner in global issues, marketing, speech presentation, comtemporary language, new media projects! It is funny that we are in the same group for almost (or rather) all projects in this sem!

无题

好累……好累……

最近，不管面对什么人、事、物的时候，都感到很大的压力……为什么会这样呢？好几次，都很痛苦、很辛苦，到那种想哭的程度……我已经很久没有这样了……最近还常常睡不着……我到底是怎么了？如果，我现在这样的话，到时候去中国时，谁能做我的聆听者呢？

突然间，感觉上在这个世界里，根本就没有我的立足之地。我很怕、很担心……我觉得，我已经快到极限了……我已经快被自己带的那副面具给搞到窒息了……