Leaving, maybe so much better...

I often think that if one is finding hard to continue living, perhaps it is better to leave the current place forever...

You may have a lot of other thoughts and things that you cannot leave behind, but if you cannot be happy where you are, then how are you suppose to be happy for the rest of your life when you wanted to be happy?

I don't know anymore...

I really don't know anymore....

Perhaps... I am still waiting for that someone to bring me away from the place...

心已死……

已经无所谓了……
这是他们一直以来的态度，我也无所谓了……
是什么于原因已经不重要了……
不是我无理取闹……而是既然答应了，就要做到……
如此简单的道理，如果做不到，那就不要答应……

So you think that is a good enough reason?? Come on! Give me a better one!

Please! If 11am is late? Then what are you doing for the whole afternoon?? Sleeping?? You are the only one free so, I nicely ask you to help! Don't give me this kind of rubbish reason!! Even the one you suppose to help have do!! Don't even know if you really put your heart to help at all!!!

Now you are singing damn loudly! And you dare to tell me you got no time!!!
Please! I saw you so slack at home all day!! Don't tell me checking a disc for 2 hr will die!!!

If I can, I will do it myself! Why would I try to ask you to help!

ReallY!!
STOP GIVING ALL THE RUBBISH EXCUSE!!!!

新的开始

换了一个新的环境，就会怀念起过去的种种。
现在的我就是如此。
怀念以前和小孩在一起的日子。
怀念以前不用回家吃饭的日子。
怀念很多很多事情。。。。
有时候，真的会后悔自己为何将工作介绍给人，之后自己离开。。。
不知是羡慕还是妒忌。。。。
也许就是心理不平衡。。。
不希望孩子们将我忘记。。。。
人本来就很矛盾。。。
一方面要帮助别人，另一方面却有不情愿或负面想法。。。。
这是不是人的可悲呢？？？？

重新来过…… 我需要宣泄的管道……

是说真的很久没更新了……
不过最近真的是太多事情了……
我绝对需要各宣泄的空间……
要不然我会疯掉!!!

有什么道理，我必须对那些讨厌的家伙表现得很友好???
因为他们是长辈、上司、前辈、亲戚???
我讨厌那些自以为是的亲戚以那种高高在上的态度和我说话……
我讨厌那种自以为是的长辈以为自己很了解我们，然后把我们的行动个推翻……
我讨厌被别人瞧不起自己的兴趣……

很宅又怎么样???
看漫画、听日本流行音乐、读小说、看日剧这些犯法吗???
凭什么，就因为我在兼职、读中文系、大学入学可能性很低，就要被忽视!!!

我讨厌这个社会!!!

救命！！！

我的巨大危机！！！

居然在明天！！！

明天要我呈现！！！虽然说不用这么的formal，可是，还是很可怕的说！！！
连幻灯片也不用，只要汇报情况就行了……真的……很可怕呢！！！

这比我写不出小说还要恐怖呢……怎么办呢？？？

无题

今天真的很累……

因为心仪请假了，星期四才会回来，结果，今天我一直坐在柜台那里忙忙碌碌，而且，因为有时新手，很多事情，我都不懂，结果一直问，又派对方生气、嫌我麻烦……之后又问一些，只有他们才应该懂的问题……我并不知道啊！然后我提出解决方法时，又在那里说不用……真的，感觉很难伺候……

接下来的三天，我都要独自和那些资深人员一起……真的很担心……每当我渐渐的开始有自信时，就会发生一些小插曲，让我的自信瓦解……真的……不知道，我几时才会崩溃……

我担心、害怕，没有好友，或同年龄的人在身边时，那种压力……真的……很久没有了……

血压最近偏高了……是压力?还是饮食不均衡呢?

实习ing……

开始实习已经一个星期了……有些不习惯的同时，也很累的说……

已经习惯无忧无虑的生活时，突然要踏入社会，确实很辛苦。以前工作，都只是工作5天制，现在一下子要工作5天1/2，实在有些吃不消……

之前，明明很期待毕业的……现在却……想永远制作学生……

真的……很累……很烦……还要准备呈现什么的……自己一个人……真的没问题吗?

实习……问题……

最近，一直在烦恼实习、特别项目的问题……好不容易选好了，却有可能两头不着岸……

太多人选择SDC了，反而让我有些担忧……虽然不能把自己看扁……但是总觉得，自己的胜算不大……

MOE，那厢，我也许会因为上一次的面世，而再次不过关……该怎么办呢？

好烦哦……虽然朋友说应该没问题……但是……就是不能有自信的面对……是什么时候开始，我的自信也随着一切流去了呢？

Finally back in Singapore!!!

Okay!! People, I am finally back in Singapore!!!

Sorry for the lack of updates, but somehow, China had block blogspot and thus, I am unable to do my irregular updating!!!

Anyway, after my birthday celebration, life was frantic with all te work and stuff and we celebrated 2 more birthdays(Boon Pin & Mr. R) and we went through the exams which I think I did not do very well...... And then we went to a few places for a 3 days 2 nights trip and we came back to Singapore yesterday night!!!

All is well and all...... So well... There is not much to worry about...... Anyway, will meet up with you guys once I settled with my school stuff!!! People, keep in touch!!!

22nd Birthday!!!

Yesterday was my 22nd birthday!!! And I got the biggest shock in my life!!!

At first, I thought that since the whole gang of us are all busy with work and stuff, I told my 姐妹们don't need to help me celebrate anymore. However, they insist to go out for dinner. So, I agreed. Then Yie Yeng asked me to go out with her to buy some stuff, so I say okay, since Boon Pin(my group member for my project) agreed and said that there isn't much to do anymore.

And after a whole, Yie Yeng brought me to see some nice night view and as I was thinking the place was getting a bit too nosiy, I turned around and saw the gang holding a birthday cookie!!! Oh gosh!!! It was then I knew that my mother contacted Lay Yen to send me a birthday cookie and the rest can coordinate with Lay Yen to celebrate my birthday!!! It is really nice of them to do so despite all the busy and rushing schedule and assignements...... Thanks once again people!!!

And thanks to my family, who sent me birthday presents all the way from Singapore to Hangzhou!!! Well, I got to get busy with work...... Will upload the photos once I got the time!!!

P.S. Thanks Kai Ni for the birthday wish!!!

Vesak Day!

Today is 农历四月十五……Vesak day...... Therefore in order to make up for my trip to temple this year, I decided to be a vegetarian for a day since today is my chinese birthday......

And so at night, we went to have dinner outside school, with Yie Yeng, Boon Pin, Yao Tian and Kira. But before that, we went to send our clothes for dry washing. After that we went to this restaurant and I only ate the vegetables, which is fine for me I guess...... Changing is nice once in a while......

After that, Yie Yeng went to find shoes with me...... And I bought a pair of slippers and a pair of shoes at a total of $40RMB!!! Look at them!!!

Shopping and Birthday celebration!!!

Went for dinner at this new Japanese restaurant behind our school and it was good!!! It has been a long time since I tasted good Japanese food!!! After that I went shopping again to find a pair of shoes but to no vaild......:( But I bought some clothes again!!! and some stuff for Kai Ni and my sisters...... And I look what I bought for Lay Yen's birthday!!!

Yesterday was Lay Yen's birthday and we went to Party World for KTV...... The place is even more posh then the one behind our school and with food and everything, it is slightly more expensive as well...... But it is fun!!! After that, we went to 工联 to shop again and I bought another skirt and a a top and a cardigen!!! Take a look at all my 战利品!!!

One test down... Assignments coming right up!!!

Okay! Just finish my chinese lit test today and I hope I can pass it...... But now that it is over, I ca finally focus on my assingments which going to be due soon!!! I will be so busy...... With Yie Yeng birthday on this coming Saturaday(2nd May), Lay Yen's on 8th May...... So much planning!!!



Well, let's go back to today, went for dinner outside school today(it seems to become a routine to us all), and went to look for my wooden comb since Lay Yen and Maybelline told me that a wooden comb would be better as there is less static so that my hair won't stick out so much...... and I bought an umbrella after my broken one during shopping the other day...... It is cheaper compare to where I bought my sisters' umbella, costs $18RMB but the design is also more of a less classic one? Haha!!! Take a look later...... And I bought 2 more tee shirts again!!! I simply can't resist the tee shirts designs!!! Look at them!!!

Yougurt......

Promise my sister to show her this big yogurt I ate after dinner today...... So here you go!!! I t costs $10.70 RMB = S$2.30+...... And after eating that, I feel super full!!!

BOOKS!!!

My books that my friend ordered for me is finally all in!!! Okay, So I split my books' order list into 2 times, and it is alot cheaper than in Singapore...... Although, I wondered, if it is been send back, will it add up to the same price??? But well here are the books!!!! The Japanese novels, Taiwan novel and Conan manga!!!


And that day I came across a classmate who was holding this magazine and I bought one for my sisters after that!!! I konw they will love it!!!

Supermarket Trip

Went to the post office today with Lay Yen and Maybelline to check out the rates and went to the supermarket at 运河广场——世纪联华。It has been sometime since I went to the super market, so I went to restock my breakfast and I bought the insecticide since there has been some insects around since the weather changed...... Bought some pegs since I have to hang my clothes outside to dry and I don't like to keep on borrowing from Yen and Maybel, so I decided to buy a set myself...... AND I bought another pair of slippers... It is nicer than the previous one, but I haven quite decide whether to wear it in the room or...... Well, give me some advice on this......

Media Touring & Shopping!

Went for this media tour today and we had to meet at 8.00am to go there! Which means, I need to wake up at 6.30am if I want to take my time and stuff! Okay, so we went there, and I slept well on the bus...... Upon reaching there, the rain got bigger and we had to walk like 10 minutes before we actually get to the place they are showing us...... It is cool to see the stuff... But there isn't much for us to see around since we didn't get to participate in the shows and all......

After that,we went to for lunch before going to 工联as it is going to be tear down soon!!! So we went to do some more shopping before we missed the chance! Take a look at the stuff I bought!

I bought another skirt!!!

Something that I thought is good to give to adults......

This is for my可愛い 鑫妍!!!

For my two sisters!!! Weird enough, after I bought these mine broke!!!

And I bought another bag!!!

Further Updates

Okay, I am back to update about the stuff the hairdresser...... Went to have crepe for lunch at 4.00pm because we spent like 4 hours at the hairdresser...... After that, we went back to the hostel only to go out 30 minutes later for dinner...... Had koearn food and ice cream... Saw these 2 piece of clothings when I was going back and decided to get them......

This only costs $15 RMB!!! Can you believe it!!!

Well, I was hoping one of my sisters could wear this... It is something they like...

New Hairstyle!!!

Went to the hair dresser today to rebond my hair with Yie Yeng and guess what? It only cost us $88RMB!!! But we were there for like about 4 hours before we are finally done...... Take a look at my new hair style!!!

The back...

The side view......

The front view!!!

So...... what do you think about the new look??? LOL!!! All right, I got to go and do my work...... Will update more once settle more work...... Ja ne!!!